I really meant to update last night. We ended up getting home really late, and we were exhausted….we quickly discovered that the night was young…and here’s why!!!!

First, (and most important!), my sister-in-law Nicol welcomed her sweet baby boy into the world last night. We saw a picture of him, and I can tell you that he is BEAUTIFUL. Congratulations, Nicol (and Greg and Summer!). I would tell you his name, but as I type this, they are still undecided…I’ll keep you posted!

Secondly, we got a puppy. He is a Golden Retriever and his name is Sawyer. We are completely in love. Jody, you win the grand prize:) I had planned to fill up this update with stories about him, because he is good, good medicine. We spent an hour and a half out at a farm in Sparta, Tennessee watching the girls play with all of the puppies in the litter. It has been a long time since they laughed like little girls should. I spent most of the night sleeping next to his cage, because as long as I was in eyesight, he wouldn’t cry. Today I had a play-date with three of my best friends, and then enjoyed time outside trying to fly a kite while Sawyer chased the girls around and got to know his new stomping ground. I will post some pictures tomorrow…you cannot help but smile when you look at his sweet face.

There is so much of me that wants to stop here, because today was the hardest day since we found out that Audrey was sick. I knew it was going to be a day of big moments, but I wasn’t prepared (and how can you be?) for the toll that it would take on me.

We met with Susannah to discuss the road ahead…to be brutally honest, I don’t have the strength to share all of it here. I actually wouldn’t have written at all, but I believe that you will pray for us, and we need it desperately.

I hope to give you all more details when I have processed things, but here is what we are moving toward. Everyone is in agreement that I will need to have a C-Section, and that it would probably be wise to plan when we want to do that because of Todd’s schedule. Dr. Trabue and Susannah had looked at my ultrasound scans from last week, and we had to talk about some hard truths. Please join us in asking God for peace about these decisions. We are leaning toward the middle of April for several reasons, but we don’t feel like we have confidence in this. My mind and spirit need to rest tonight.

We spent the evening recording a song that we wrote for Audrey. Amy, Allan, and Jason, we are forever indebted to you for sacrificing yourselves. Your hard work and dedication reminded us that suffering reveals the beauty of God’s body of believers.

I have been trying to type this for an hour, and I can’t seem to get more than a few words into a sentence before I drift off mentally.

It is after midnight, and I need to just be in prayer for a little while…please join me. No doubt God will meet us there, and will redeem this brokenness the way that only He can.

Thank you for caring and for praying…