***Update*** For those of you who were having problems hearing it before with Internet Explorer, you should be able to now!!! Enjoy…the countdown has begun… 🙂
“Oh that my words were recorded,
that they were written on a scroll,
that they were inscribed with an iron
or engraved in rock forever!
I KNOW MY REDEEMER LIVES,
and that in the end he will stand upon the earth…
It is so hard to believe that nearly a year has passed since we held our Audrey. I have so many thoughts going through my head, and I am praying that God will give me some cohesive way to share them with you all. I have mornings where I can’t get out of bed and then moments that feel normal. Then I have moments that feel normal but then I feel guilty for them. I’m all over the place. If you have lost a child, you probably understand the roller coaster that ensues in the year(s) following.
I was in my car listening to the CD that Selah will be releasing in August, and there is a song that makes me cry every time I hear it. I think it best says what I am feeling deeply and not explaining well, and I want you all to hear it. Unfortunately, playing music from an unreleased CD is apparently a “no-no” in the music business. Who knew? Oh, everyone? Really? Well then.
I talked to Todd about it and I was explaining how much the song ministered to me, and the short version of the story is that some strings were pulled (thank you, Brian Stewart) and Curb is allowing me to have the song on the blog, but just for 3 DAYS!!!!!! So listen to it now, because it will disappear shortly…and no, you can’t download it. But in just a few short months you can get it for 99 cents on ITunes!!! Oh, and I am also supposed to tell you that this is not the finalized version…but I think you’ll get the gist:)
So I hope you all are blessed by it the way I have been, and are brought hope by the meaning of it. But, unfortunamundo (yes red squiggles, I see you, but unfortunamundo SHOULD be a word), I will have to take it down in three days, so listen quickly!
ALSO, if you are thinking of sponsoring a Compassion child through the link on my blog, wait until Tuesday, because thanks to a very special friend, I am ecstatic to be able to offer you something amazing in honor of Audrey’s Birthday. God had allowed some beautiful things to happen because of her, and He is constantly reminding me of a few simple words I need to hear, and I am willing to bet that you do too.
None of this will be left unredeemed.
(remember to mute the music at the bottom and give this a few seconds to load…)
(Written by Chad Cates, Tony Wood, Brian Petak)
Produced by Bernie Herms
And had the FIRE sung out of it by Amy Perry and my Toddy.
Life breaks and falls apart
But when anything that’s shattered
We live in the shadow of the fall
But the cross says these are all – just
But when anything that’s shattered
You never know the miracles
Keep praying for MckMama; I consider myself blessed to be one of many who is praying for her sweet son…and if she and I don’t talk in some form at least 15 times a day now, I start to twitch. The Lord has provided me with a kindred spirit…love you, friend.
She is going to have a hard time getting rid of me after this whole ordeal.
And trust me, there will be an AFTER. Stellan may have a long journey, but he’s a fighter, and we all continue to believe that it’s just a matter of time until he is well. I am just begging the Lord to make it soon…it is so tiring to be where they are. Let’s continue to rally around them and pray specifically for wisdom, discernment and peace.
I will write again on Tuesday, and do hope you will join me on what would have been Audrey’s first birthday. It is a milestone I didn’t anticipate sneaking up so quickly, and yet the Lord has graced me with assurance that she is celebrating in a way we can’t quite understand yet…
Blessings and love to all of you, and may you be in the constant presence of our Lord this Easter week, as we prepare to celebrate our glorious redemption, bought by a Man Who the tomb could not contain…