The Beginning of the Story…

First of all, thank you for being here.  If you are here that means that you may want to become a part of the story that God is weaving us into, and we welcome that.  I decided to start this blog because we are humbled and overwhelmed by the number of you who have contacted us, wishing us well, praying for us, bringing offerings on our behalf during this season.  What we are realizing, though, is that we are not able to keep everyone informed the way that we would like to.  We are simply too tired and too sad to tell it over and over.  This seemed like the best way to involve many of you...

Explaining the boo-boo’s

It is Monday night, a week after we found out about Audrey, and I am sitting with Kate while she falls asleep.  Actually I am sitting with her while she talks about circles and Santa Claus while touching her toe to the floor and eying me tauntingly, quickly whipping it back on the bed when I peek over my laptop. It is her night to sleep with the bunny and she is taking her responsibility seriously.  She read her a few stories and then tucked her in by her side. This afternoon I had a chiropractic appointment with a new chiropractor that many of my friends had referred me to.  He is...

I Thee Wed…

Hello all.  I feel like I should apologize for being absent for a few days...life has been chaotic, and I have missed my time with you.  It is good therapy.  I am sitting on my bed, freshly clean from the shower while the Food Network reminds me of how slowly I chop and how I do not know how to eyeball ingredients at all. Daily I am reminded that I am a measurer. The whole "dash" and "pinch" thing stresses me out. I need teaspoons and red and white plaid cookbooks.  This quality, as you may have surmised, extends to pretty much every part of my life, and has always...

Little Miracles…

If you would have asked me a few years ago if I would have considered today's events to be miraculous, I probably would have said no.  I feel differently now, and for that I am grateful. We had our first ultrasound since I have started writing this blog, so this was the first time we have seen Audrey in 2 1/2 weeks.  It appears that God has been busy....Our technician's name is Patti.  I say "is" because we have pretty much given her no choice but to stay with us during the coming weeks. We know that she was handpicked by the Lord to walk with us, and we have no intention...

Promises

Well, I haven't heard anything from the doctors yet.  For someone who is known by her lack of patience, this silence has actually settled in quite nicely.  It allows me to drift into the world of possibility without the inconvenient confrontation of what may not be good news.  It allows me to remember who God is, and to revel in this moment a little while longer. I am at peace.Right now, I am sitting on the couch while Todd goes to the airport to pick up his best friend, Dan.  Todd has all of the girls with him (including Kate, who is wearing her pink Target flower...

Disney World!!!!

Well, we are home from our big trip to Cinderella's Castle.  Thank you so much for your prayers....you were all with us in spirit and the girls LOVED the adventure.  I am pretty tired, but really wanted to share these moments with you all. I think they say it all...I'm sure you realize by now that I am a storyteller, and there are many hiding within these images that I can't wait to tell.  For now, enjoy!!!!...

Teacups

Well, I had an ultrasound today. Patti spent another few hours of her life with our sweet Audrey...we are so grateful for her gift and for her heart.  She makes the unbearable seem very normal, like catching up with an old friend.  No matter what she says, I can sense how desperately she wants to tell us that it is all okay, that the baby is healthy, that this was a dream and she is the alarm clock we have been waiting for.  We all know that she may never be able to say those words to us, and we accept graciously what she can offer.  Again, if you are reading this,...

In the Mourning

I am sitting in Starbucks, sipping a non-fat, decaf paper cup of healing.  My only regret is that I passed on the whip cream.  Our babysitter is with the girls, and I am listening to a group of college students chat about what really matters in life.  I am tempted to tell them that they don't have a clue, but for now I am just enjoying the escape.  If I didn't know better, I would say that I was doing great.  I have make-up on, I had a play-date with a group of amazing women today, and God has given me the strength to be a single parent while Todd is gone (he left...

The Gift-Giver

I was talking to a friend recently, and she reminded me of one of my favorite "Abby and Ellie" stories.  I want to share it with you in the hopes that it brings a big smile to your face, and that you will have a chance to know my girls a little bit better. On December 2nd, 2006, the girls turned 4.  We decided that instead of a traditional birthday party, we would take an opportunity to teach them about sacrifice and generosity in a very concrete way.  We asked guests to choose several "small-cost" items instead of gifts, and at the party, we packaged them all up as a group...

Our sweet Audrey girl

Here is the girl behind the prayers!!! This is several weeks old, but such a great shot of our little bunny.  We wanted you to meet her:)I am sorry it has taken me this long to post.  I have spent a better part of the past two days trying to figure out the best way to write this.  We had a really hard appointment on Wednesday (I noticed that my blog said Wednesday the last time I posted, but it was actually after midnight Tuesday night, and my appt. was the next day).  We met with Angie, who was incredibly knowledgeable and great at her job.  It turned...

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Welcome to the blog that tells the story of my daughter, Audrey. This content begins in January 2008 and records our love and loss of our fourth child. This blog will not be updated regularly, but just serves as an archive of my writings from that season. For regular updates, please subscribe to my mailing list.

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