For some reason, when I am in the midst of a crisis, I feel the need to clean. I want my house to be spotless, everything in its place. I have heard that this can be part of the grieving process, and it makes sense. There is a need for something to...
In one of my books on grieving the loss of a child, the author suggests smashing a piece of pottery as a form of therapy.I thought this was one of the dumbest things I had ever heard.I was on my way to pick up Todd at the airport while we were at the beach, and on the...
A few months ago, I got an email from a girl named Sara. As I read her words, I was struck by the incredible similarities between our stories. She was pregnant with a little boy (Elliot) who had kidneys that were nonfunctioning, lack of lung development,...
I want you to know that I have started this post many times in the past 2 days, and my fingers have failed me. My temptation in this moment is to just close the computer. Pretend that none of this is happening. We had a hard day yesterday, a day that was...
Several people have asked me what a typical day is for me right now. Aside from a great day with my family (ever celebrated a holiday with Italians? Mangia!), there were a few moments that stood out, and I think they answer that question pretty well. I took a shower...
I am writing from Lexington, KY, where Selah had a concert tonight. Since we only live a few hours away, we came up with Todd. I am so glad we did. We are staying in a very fancy hotel (thank you Ashland Baptist!) that is not helping me to empathize with Todd’s...
Welcome to the blog that tells the story of my daughter, Audrey. This content begins in January 2008 and records our love and loss of our fourth child. This blog will not be updated regularly, but just serves as an archive of my writings from that season. For regular updates, please subscribe to my mailing list.
