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Several people have asked me what a typical day is for me right now. Aside from a great day with my family (ever celebrated a holiday with Italians? Mangia!), there were a few moments that stood out, and I think they answer that question pretty well. I took a shower and only remembered to shave one leg. I tried to look up the weather for the middle of April, hoping that Audrey would have a beautiful birthday. I answered a bunch of email, and realized that my inbox was eating them up without warning. I spent a few hours trying to send them to a place where they wouldn't be deleted; there...
A Lot to Say
Kate does not like the idea of someone else having the spotlight...she would rather just keep going (and going and going...). I hope you giggle your way through this...I just figured out my camera can do video and I captured this yesterday. Abby is on the left, Ellie in the middle, and Kate, well, you will know which one Kate is.I have many other things to post. I had a very eventful day on Tuesday...we are still processing. When I can find the words, I would love to post about the day and ask for your prayer. I will try to do it later this evening.For now, enjoy:) You...
Carry You
We had a really hard day on Tuesday. It started out by going to a funeral home and choosing a resting place for our little girl. No mother should ever have to walk around and stare at tombstones while her child hiccups and shifts within her. It was the most unnatural, horrible feeling I can think to describe. As we met with the director, we made our agenda clear. "We don't have the final say on this baby. If God chooses to heal her, none of this will be necessary. We just want to have this taken care of in the event that...well, you know." She nodded the nod that means that she...
4:7
I want you to know that I have started this post many times in the past 2 days, and my fingers have failed me. My temptation in this moment is to just close the computer. Pretend that none of this is happening. We had a hard day yesterday, a day that was marked by decisions that mommies and daddies shouldn't have to make. Usually I wait to post on here...at least until I can breathe and control my tears long enough to be able to see the screen as I write, but tonight I am just letting it spill out of me. I need to be transparent before you in this moment, because I...
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When I was about 4 years old, I was hospitalized for several days because I battled with overwhelming anxiety. I remember the hospital room, the way I would watch out the door when it was open to see who was coming. They made me draw pictures and ran all kinds of tests. I saw a child psychologist as well, and the best part was that my parents took me out to dinner afterward and I felt very fancy. At the time I didn't understand that something was wrong with me or that I was different from other kids. My stomach hurt all of the time. I used to make my...
2:00 Update
This is Angie's friend, Jessica. I will be updating this blog on behalf of Angie in the days ahead. You each have become so important to her. Thank you for your prayers, kind words and interest in Audrey's story. None of it is taken for granted.Angie and Todd will be arriving to the hospital today around 2 pm central time. Her c-section is scheduled for 4 pm. Please be praying for these next hours of preparation - for Angie, Todd and her family, as well as for the medical staff that will be caring for Angie and Audrey.Angie's friend and Audrey's namesake, Audra, spoke with Angie this...
4:00- Angie Is In Surgery
Angie just went into surgery. It is 4:00 central time. Audra will call me as soon as she is out, which is expected to be around 5:30. I will update you all as soon as I hear anything. I have chills and am trying to hold back tears as I write this. Please continue to pray, dear ones. We know that God hears them all and as the bible says, will work for the good of those who love Him. (Romans 8:28).Prayerfully yours,Jessica
Audrey Caroline is Here
Audrey Caroline Smith was born at 4:31! When she was born, she made a few squeaks and noises, so Angie and Todd immediately knew she was breathing and alive. Audra said that she is simply beautiful and looks a lot like the twins looked when they were born. She has fiery red hair, weighs 3 lbs., 2 oz. and is 15 inches long. However, Audrey's heart rate is very low and they are expecting to her to pass, but have not indicated how long she will live. Right now, everyone is simply spending time loving her.Todd just gave her a bath and they are going to take some photos with her.Angie is doing...
Audrey is in Heaven
Audrey is now in heaven with the Lord. She passed around 6:45 central time. Everyone in the family is doing really well, all things considered, and they fervently believe that the time they had with Audrey was miraculous. The girls got to meet their sister and love on her too.I know Angie will be so moved by all the prayers that have been lifted up for Audrey, her and the Smith family. Thank you for the compassion you have shown.I am going be with Angie now, but will post again when I get...
Time Together
Audra was right. Audrey is beautiful. When I got to the hospital, Abby and Ellie were sitting on Angie's bed and Angie was holding Audrey, who was dressed in a tiny pink gown with a bonnet on her head. The girls were quick to introduce me to their sister Audrey and point out her red hair, gently pushing back the bonnet.Overall, the family was doing well. They talked about Audrey, about what a blessing it was to have spent time with her before she went to heaven, about how she was with the angels now.As I think I mentioned, Angie's c-section went well, but nevertheless, she was feeling...
