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My Purse…
In case you are curious about the fate of my purse...happy bidding :)****update**** I was notified by a sweet reader that I am not allowed to put an item up for "charity auction" unless I use their charities!!!! eek!!!!!! I had no idea!!!! I am in the midst of re-posting the item legally....if you already bid, please come back and do it all over again in a bit when I get the new link. I will post it here ASAP!!!!! Thanks so much...****another update....**** here is the new link, with some modifications so I won't get in trouble with Ebay...just so you all know, 100% of the proceeds...
Empty Pages
I love that a bunch of you commented on how great it was to see me smiling in the pictures I posted. A couple of you said it seemed like I was getting my "spunk" back. I feel like there are glimpses of it every day, but yesterday was really hard. I found a notebook that I hadn't seen around for a few months, and when I opened it I saw a page where I had been doodling potential baby names. It must have been around November or so. At first, there were boy names and girl names. A few pages later, it was just girl names. Then it just said Audrey Caroline Smith....
Vous et Nul Autre
A few days ago I came across a book that I hadn't seen in years. I was re-arranging our bookshelves to try and make them neater (go figure), and pulling out old memories as I went. I read it when I was in college, and although it was faded, I could still tell what I had highlighted. I flipped the pages and came to a section that had received the coveted "highlighted and starred" marking. Highlighted usually means I liked what I read, and starred means it's something I want to carry with me. The author was talking about how she and her husband bought each other...
I want to know you…
In the past few days, I have come to find out that some of my correspondences (more than one situation) were based on fictitious people. I was hurt to know this, but more than that, I want to know the real people and love them for who they are, not who they felt like they had to pretend to be. I prayed earnestly during my conversations with these individuals (over the course of weeks, months of writing them), and I know that God will use those prayers to reach them and bring them closer to Him. That is more than I can ask for, and I am grateful to have had that chance,...
12.02.02
One of the best days of my life, no question.So many of you have emailed/posted to ask about my sweet miracles Ellie and Abby, and it means the world to me that you care enough to ask. I just poured a cup of hot tea (thank you, Kristin), the house is quiet, and it still smells like a home-cooked meal (I haven't cooked in weeks...progress!) I thank God for these simple moments, where normalcy sneaks up on me. I sat with the girls as they fell asleep, and I thought about a time, not so long ago, when we didn't know if we would get to have them in this life. I am a terrible...
Emmaus
So many of you have asked about how I came to be so close to God. I want to talk a little about that here, and I hope that it speaks to you and encourages you to seek His face. Before I start, I want to say that if you are not a "believer," you are welcome here. I hope you read these words and feel blessed, even if you and I do not share the same Lord. Your letters and emails have spoken volumes to me about the legacy of my sweet daughter, and I hope you will continue to spend time here with me. My deepest prayer is that you will feel safe here, and that if...
The Valley of Baca
So many of you have written to ask me about Greg and Nicol, and I want you to know how much it means to me (and to them). We went to Chattanooga and spent the day with them last Thursday. We ate some delicious pizza, then went for ice-cream and on to the Children's Museum. It was a day of just watching our kids play and talking about this and that. There were many conversations about life in general and then we would talk about what they were feeling and what we were feeling, and just the whole thing. There were moments where we just laughed in spite of the...
A Few Things…
Hello all.I wanted to write tonight and tell you a few things before I turn in for the night. Firstly (and with her permission), I want to introduce to you my friend Adrienne. She is the girl I asked you to pray for in my last post. Click on her name and meet her sweet family...they are amazing. I would update you here, but I would love for you to hear it in her words. She has had a hard week, and I want to thank you for your prayers on her behalf. I know how much it means to her....and despite the sadness, she says she is feeling peaceful. One of...
A Few Answers
***updated 7/3*** Just want to let you know that the author of the Jesus Storybook Bible posted on MY blog!!!! It's true!!!! Read for yourselves!!!! Her name is Sally Lloyd Jones and now I am going to have to stop stalking her because she knows I exist...Can you BELIEVE it?????? Also, a few of you asked if I was open to adoption...the answer is ABSOLUTELY!!!!! Thanks for asking! Hello friends! I hope you are well. I have been wanting to write this post forever, and I just found a window of time and finally sat down with some of my “most frequently asked questions.” ...
A Beautiful Song
(written 7/7)6 months ago today I sat in a dark room and listened to a doctor tell me I was not going to get to keep her.3 months ago today I held her. 3 months ago today I had to give her back.This weekend, I got to share a little life with Sara (yes...Sara from Texas:)) and her family. When I say "family," I mean that they came in two cars and one of them was a 15 passenger van. It was more of a blessing than I know how to say. It is amazing how God can bring beauty from ashes...and He did. I feel like they have been friends forever, and we were really sad to see them...
